Saturday, June 27, 2009
Sleep Deprivation
Why is it that your body will do the opposite of what you mentally desire? I get up early all week for work and just this one time, i want to sleep late. I need the rest cuz i'm physically drained! Yet i'm lying here in bed jealous of my boyfriend cuz He's out! He's snoring and sleep talking as well! I just wanna close my eyes and dream about foolishness. Instead i'm up thinking bout what I can be doin and my goals for today. This absolutely sucks!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Maybe I'm Heartless
Indeed it's a shock that Michael Jackson has died, but seriously why are people acting like Mike was their closest uncle or somebody. I mean he is definitely legend but watching 20 year olds crying on 106 and park strikes me as p i t i f u l. The bottom line is that you didn't know him personally and your tears and sad ways are not doing him any good. Ask yourself, would Michael cry if he heard you had died. Would he care one way or the other??? Pray for his family but let that sad ish go. It's stupid. ::personal opinion::
It doesn't make you a fan if you only know his 3 or 4 most popular songs. Get a grip! I didn't cry for Left Eye, Aaliyah, Biggie, Pac, Rick James, Bernie Mac, not even Luther....Mike will NOT get my tears! So maybe I'm heartless...I think I'm a realest and its time you get a taste of the juice I'm on!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Let It Go!
I have so much to say but at times like this my words can never really be expressed. I guess the bottom line is I am unsure of my feelings and my take on certain situations cause I could potentially have a biased view. But here goes!
People go through life not really getting the treatment they deserve because of their passive and kind ways. But how do you know when too far is just that? Too far! Don’t get me wrong because I believe in forgiving people but when it seems as if the intentions of the person is to honestly hurt you, that’s when you have to get the balls to continue on without that person. No one who truly loves you will continuously do things that cause you ill feelings. Obviously that person is trying to send you a sign or give u the notion that he/she wants a change in life and you are not necessarily apart of that change. People can only do what you allow them to do and if you allow them to run over you or make a fool of you or even present a picture of them having you wrapped around their pinky finger, then guess what….THEY WILL CONTINUE TO DO THESE THINGS WITHOUT ANY TYPE OF REMORSE!!!
Girls indeed play games in relationships no matter how much they love and care for you. But some games chicks play go beyond the limitation of a TRUE loving relationship. If someone so called really care about you then they want the best for you. Love is KIND! I know that things are not supposed to be all peachy clean but things do get to that breaking point and when it gets there it has to be a 50/50 effort to get past it. When new situations began to arise and you are the victim not the criminal, it is time to LET GO! There is no justification or excuse to be mistreated! If the person you have professed your love to publically and privately begins to do things out of the norm such as numerable cheatings acts or anything that is shameful to tell a third party, then maybe that person has already began a new life and is just giving you reasons to call it quits….(games) the best game a chick or guy can put on is the upfront game cause he or she is letting you know everything that is going on but at the same time not stopping the side piece action! So for that person, everything is cool because they “did the right thing” by making you aware of the wrong actions but who is to say that the wrong actions are going to stop as a result of you knowing?!?! Them not having anything to hide only allows them to sleep better but oh well for your sleep cause that person still doing their own thing without any regard to your feelings!
Then that person hits you with the “but YOU did this” or “what about that time YOU” type of stuff. This in turn makes you feel bad and that is when you excuse such behavior from him or her because the wrong you did surfaces once again! But my main thing is this {{{love is not sufficient if BOTH parties are doing things that can most definitely be under the title of cheating}}} obviously the happiness that was once there is only sparked at certain times and remnants of the past can produce that smile that you once couldn’t get OFF your face. Rather you decide to face reality or not, you both have found happiness elsewhere. The time needed to mend and rebuild what WAS, is too extensive due to the fact that in the time used to repair; feelings for whomever else have already grown! The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result. Clearly you must be insane to keep trying to put the pieces to the puzzle back together knowing it’s a 100 count and you only have 78 pieces to work with!! Maybe you are better off without each other than being together under conditions that include arguing constantly, attitude changes when the person comes around, lying when the truth is too much to handle, and going to sleep thinking about someone else >lol…killer<> Basically you both are looking for an outlet to escape the sad reality of what once was but when the outlet becomes available it becomes easier to blame each other than to accept things as they are clearly given to you! You can love someone and be apart from them. Just because you love someone doesn’t mean that you have to be with each other. Love is definitely not the super glue to relationships. It has to be more!
Moral of the blog>>>>LET IT GO!
People go through life not really getting the treatment they deserve because of their passive and kind ways. But how do you know when too far is just that? Too far! Don’t get me wrong because I believe in forgiving people but when it seems as if the intentions of the person is to honestly hurt you, that’s when you have to get the balls to continue on without that person. No one who truly loves you will continuously do things that cause you ill feelings. Obviously that person is trying to send you a sign or give u the notion that he/she wants a change in life and you are not necessarily apart of that change. People can only do what you allow them to do and if you allow them to run over you or make a fool of you or even present a picture of them having you wrapped around their pinky finger, then guess what….THEY WILL CONTINUE TO DO THESE THINGS WITHOUT ANY TYPE OF REMORSE!!!
Girls indeed play games in relationships no matter how much they love and care for you. But some games chicks play go beyond the limitation of a TRUE loving relationship. If someone so called really care about you then they want the best for you. Love is KIND! I know that things are not supposed to be all peachy clean but things do get to that breaking point and when it gets there it has to be a 50/50 effort to get past it. When new situations began to arise and you are the victim not the criminal, it is time to LET GO! There is no justification or excuse to be mistreated! If the person you have professed your love to publically and privately begins to do things out of the norm such as numerable cheatings acts or anything that is shameful to tell a third party, then maybe that person has already began a new life and is just giving you reasons to call it quits….(games) the best game a chick or guy can put on is the upfront game cause he or she is letting you know everything that is going on but at the same time not stopping the side piece action! So for that person, everything is cool because they “did the right thing” by making you aware of the wrong actions but who is to say that the wrong actions are going to stop as a result of you knowing?!?! Them not having anything to hide only allows them to sleep better but oh well for your sleep cause that person still doing their own thing without any regard to your feelings!
Then that person hits you with the “but YOU did this” or “what about that time YOU” type of stuff. This in turn makes you feel bad and that is when you excuse such behavior from him or her because the wrong you did surfaces once again! But my main thing is this {{{love is not sufficient if BOTH parties are doing things that can most definitely be under the title of cheating}}} obviously the happiness that was once there is only sparked at certain times and remnants of the past can produce that smile that you once couldn’t get OFF your face. Rather you decide to face reality or not, you both have found happiness elsewhere. The time needed to mend and rebuild what WAS, is too extensive due to the fact that in the time used to repair; feelings for whomever else have already grown! The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result. Clearly you must be insane to keep trying to put the pieces to the puzzle back together knowing it’s a 100 count and you only have 78 pieces to work with!! Maybe you are better off without each other than being together under conditions that include arguing constantly, attitude changes when the person comes around, lying when the truth is too much to handle, and going to sleep thinking about someone else >lol…killer<> Basically you both are looking for an outlet to escape the sad reality of what once was but when the outlet becomes available it becomes easier to blame each other than to accept things as they are clearly given to you! You can love someone and be apart from them. Just because you love someone doesn’t mean that you have to be with each other. Love is definitely not the super glue to relationships. It has to be more!
Moral of the blog>>>>LET IT GO!
Friday, June 19, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
First Ultrasound
So I've been doing window shopping just to see what the stores have to offer for my little one, not knowing what I'm actually having yet. Girls have a huge selection in all colors and their section is so adorable. Boys on the other hand have a small selection and everything has animals on it....{boring} I want to have a girl so I can play house, dress up, have tea parties, and be at her dance recitals....oh and I want to adorn her in princess attire and accessories....the cutest stuff ever. Well God heard my prayers cause after having my first ultrasound yesterday, IT'S A GIRL!!!!!!! yay!!! She is going to be mommy's and daddy's little princess! =) Christianah Sincere Jonas
Thursday, June 4, 2009
The Baby Kicks
Soooo, this pregnancy thing has really been a precious moment in time for me. I must say that the simplest thing makes me all emotional. The first time I heard the baby's heartbeat, I cried. Every time I look down and only see stomach and thighs, I cry. {that's not a happy cry though...lol} I have yet to receive an ultrasound to determine the sex of the baby, but the most precious thing has been going on....that little offspring of mine is kicking!!! I mean the baby has got to be doing somersaults or something. It is sooooo adorable. =) My boyfriend finds it rather intriguing as he holds his hand on my belly puts his ear to it asking the baby "what are you doing in there? kick daddy's ear!" I have the feeling this motherhood thing is going to be a joy after all.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Russel Simmons
I AM NOT SURE IF I'M TRIPPIN OR MAYBE IF I'M ACTUALLY LATE BUT DOES RUSSEL SIMMONS HAVE A LISP??!?!? THIS COMMERCIAL ABOUT THE RUSH CARD, CHARGE CARD....WHATEVER....MAKES IT SOOOO NOTICEABLE!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Me or The Fellas
I honestly have a great boyfriend which most chicks would dream about or can only fathom on paper. He will make to be a great father and much more. He is going to hate me for this one, but....lately, I have been feeling like I am competing with his friends. Don't get me wrong because I am a very understanding, caring, and trusting girlfriend but, I am not liking the time he spends with them.
It is difficult to like the friends he hangs with because he tells me what type of people they are. Just know, you probably don't want your little brother, cousin, and definitely not your man hanging with them. Well it sucks because just as much as I don't want him around them, they don't want me around at all. This is fine because I am not trying to be "one of the guys" but when I'm chosen AFTER them is when the problem arises.....
I proud myself on my ability to let ish go and keep it moving but I can't shake this thing. It's understandable if you and your dudes want to do "dude" things and no women allowed. I respect that. I know you have to let a man be a man! But I do feel like you have to stand up for your woman at some point and make ya boys realize that the two of you are a unit. Just because they choose not to have me around doesn't make me disappear from his life.
I am not blaming his friends for not wanting me around but I do feel like my man has to take some authority and speak up for me! It has been times when it would have been nice with "just us girls" but I had to let my friends know that my man was coming along as well. They had to accept it and move on. Why can't I get the same treatment from him???
I love him, I do; but it has come to the point where he has to decide if it is going to be me or the fellas....
It is difficult to like the friends he hangs with because he tells me what type of people they are. Just know, you probably don't want your little brother, cousin, and definitely not your man hanging with them. Well it sucks because just as much as I don't want him around them, they don't want me around at all. This is fine because I am not trying to be "one of the guys" but when I'm chosen AFTER them is when the problem arises.....
I proud myself on my ability to let ish go and keep it moving but I can't shake this thing. It's understandable if you and your dudes want to do "dude" things and no women allowed. I respect that. I know you have to let a man be a man! But I do feel like you have to stand up for your woman at some point and make ya boys realize that the two of you are a unit. Just because they choose not to have me around doesn't make me disappear from his life.
I am not blaming his friends for not wanting me around but I do feel like my man has to take some authority and speak up for me! It has been times when it would have been nice with "just us girls" but I had to let my friends know that my man was coming along as well. They had to accept it and move on. Why can't I get the same treatment from him???
I love him, I do; but it has come to the point where he has to decide if it is going to be me or the fellas....
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Why Don't Men Get Tested?
So as I have grown and matured, I have realized that men (especially black men) do not believe in getting tested. This whole idea puzzles me because your health should be very important to you. Sexually transmitted diseases are REAL. Nobody is invincible! I asked several college males about this and the answers for not getting tested were the furthest from smart!
1) Men don't get tested because they don't want people to see them in the clinic or wherever they may be testing. WHAT????????? That makes no sense. You should be proud to be getting yourself checked out and not sitting around with a dick that's slowly falling off. lol
2) Men don't get tested because they are too much of cowards to know the truth. They rather be sick and infected than to KNOW they are sick and infected. Crazed idea but so true. Women also are scared but most value themselves way too much to live in ignorance. Indeed, I was scared sitting in Kaiser Permanente the first time I got tested, but I DID IT.
3) Men don't get tested because they HONESTLY don't think they can catch anything. HA! One of the biggest cases of ignorance known to mankind. These dudes really feel like the girls they have sex with have flawless pussy. Yeah, girls may think they don't have nothing, but they probably do!
4) Men don't get tested because they claim they don't want to have to beat nobody's ass for giving them something. *YOU STUPID FOOL* Doctors can't tell you who transmitted the disease to who...They can only tell you that you got it and your partner may have it as well so please tell them to get tested also.
The bottom line is, our black men need to get their ish checked out. It's not cute and it's a safety hazard because you put your dick in one girl, and she sleeps with another dude. Then the cycle continues. PLEASE GET TESTED.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
It Takes So Much
*all feelings expressed are real, but not necessarily MINE*
So today after I saw the look in your eyes after you looked into mine, I realized it takes so much.
It takes so much to walk away from you as if your place in my life is minimal.
It takes so much not to scream at people through a bull horn just how much I love you.
It takes so much not to walk up to every person I see and tell them about the text messages you sent me last night.
It takes so much not to tweet about the phone call I received from you this morning, as you expressed your love and affection for me
It takes so much to settle for a "church hug" when I really want to hold you tight and not let go
It takes so much to ignore the butterflies I get when I see your smile
It takes so much not to part your lips with my tongue and taste your nectar
I guess it wouldn't take so much if I wasn't another man's woman and you weren't another woman's man.
You should be mine.
So today after I saw the look in your eyes after you looked into mine, I realized it takes so much.
It takes so much to walk away from you as if your place in my life is minimal.
It takes so much not to scream at people through a bull horn just how much I love you.
It takes so much not to walk up to every person I see and tell them about the text messages you sent me last night.
It takes so much not to tweet about the phone call I received from you this morning, as you expressed your love and affection for me
It takes so much to settle for a "church hug" when I really want to hold you tight and not let go
It takes so much to ignore the butterflies I get when I see your smile
It takes so much not to part your lips with my tongue and taste your nectar
I guess it wouldn't take so much if I wasn't another man's woman and you weren't another woman's man.
You should be mine.
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