Whats worst than being sad and down?
-Being sad and down with no one to talk to cause they will never truly understand.
>>>>story of my life
Friday, August 14, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
Not Two
Why did I let you go is the question on my mind
You were such a lovely person, so funny and so kind
But I listened to my head instead of my heart
It said you no longer loved me and we were falling apart
So instead of me getting my heart broken once more again
I cut the relationship off and called us just friends
But I knew in my heart I wanted more
Cause without you, I had nothing to really live for
Many nights I cried myself sleep
I wish I hadn't gotten in so deep
I called and called, but you never answered the phone
I felt so unloved, I felt all alone
Finally we talked for what seemed like forever
By the end of the conversation we were back together
It was like the angels began to sing
I was so happy, what a wonderful thing
I never loved a person like I love you
I'm so happy we're one-not two
You were such a lovely person, so funny and so kind
But I listened to my head instead of my heart
It said you no longer loved me and we were falling apart
So instead of me getting my heart broken once more again
I cut the relationship off and called us just friends
But I knew in my heart I wanted more
Cause without you, I had nothing to really live for
Many nights I cried myself sleep
I wish I hadn't gotten in so deep
I called and called, but you never answered the phone
I felt so unloved, I felt all alone
Finally we talked for what seemed like forever
By the end of the conversation we were back together
It was like the angels began to sing
I was so happy, what a wonderful thing
I never loved a person like I love you
I'm so happy we're one-not two
Not Correctable
The tears keep streamin
I'm asking what do you mean and
Why must you hurt me, lie, to me, and hate me
Act as though I'm out to get you, when in reality I just want to love you
And maybe hold you, and kiss you, and just be with you
But your words and actions leave me with NO satisfaction
But rather just a "sorry ms. jackson"
Which I don't understand, cause YOU, you supposed to be my man,
My life, my world, my babyboy
The one in whom is my pride and joy
But yet...
The tears keep pourin'
I'm asking if you think I'm a whore and
Why is it that you haven't called me
You know...since you boned me
Seeing that we were together for so long
I thought it was okay to take off my thong
But I now I see I laid with the enemy
And now that enemy resides inside of me
Cause if I want it or not, we made ourselves one
All this heartache for a few minutes of fun
And here I sit analyzing facts
Realizing now that I have no tact
Cause I don't know what to do in this predicament
I'm hurting over the boy I thought was God sent
But yet...
The tears keep racin'
I'm asking why haven't I seen your face and
I get the feeling that you've moved ahead
And all that you left me were lies you said
You know like "You're the only one for me" and "I'll be here always"
Funny how I haven't heard from you in days
But this can't be true
Cause you ALWAYS responded with "I love you too"
But in these tears lies pain
This pain I'm feeling is ineffable, inexpressible, ineffectual, inevitable
Shouldn't be acceptable
But I can't change it cause it's not correctable
I'm asking what do you mean and
Why must you hurt me, lie, to me, and hate me
Act as though I'm out to get you, when in reality I just want to love you
And maybe hold you, and kiss you, and just be with you
But your words and actions leave me with NO satisfaction
But rather just a "sorry ms. jackson"
Which I don't understand, cause YOU, you supposed to be my man,
My life, my world, my babyboy
The one in whom is my pride and joy
But yet...
The tears keep pourin'
I'm asking if you think I'm a whore and
Why is it that you haven't called me
You know...since you boned me
Seeing that we were together for so long
I thought it was okay to take off my thong
But I now I see I laid with the enemy
And now that enemy resides inside of me
Cause if I want it or not, we made ourselves one
All this heartache for a few minutes of fun
And here I sit analyzing facts
Realizing now that I have no tact
Cause I don't know what to do in this predicament
I'm hurting over the boy I thought was God sent
But yet...
The tears keep racin'
I'm asking why haven't I seen your face and
I get the feeling that you've moved ahead
And all that you left me were lies you said
You know like "You're the only one for me" and "I'll be here always"
Funny how I haven't heard from you in days
But this can't be true
Cause you ALWAYS responded with "I love you too"
But in these tears lies pain
This pain I'm feeling is ineffable, inexpressible, ineffectual, inevitable
Shouldn't be acceptable
But I can't change it cause it's not correctable
Just Friends
This letter, this poem, this heart thang
for which I cant find a name
is about to let you in my world, my heart, my soul, the true me
which most times I dont let you see
but I guess this time I'll let my words be free
free to linger and touch your insides with that warm, tingly, feeling you cast upon me
I come with flaws and imperfections
but between us there's a connection
one that I feel is truly a blessing
and at times teaches me a valuable lesson
love comes knocking
when love's not wanted
but more so needed
and needs to be proceeded with cooperation
and communication
without any hesitation
but most definitely without limitations
yet I choose to run from love cause when love gets too close, it starts to hurt
and strip you of everything so all that you are left with is love itself
which sometimes isn't sufficient
but to ignore all the fussin' and bitchin'
to yourself you continue to mention
that it's what you got and love is what you'll always have but LOVERS dont always stay
...but more about me and you
and how I smile when you call me boo
and how at times I wanna leave with an "I love you"
but too scared that "love you too"
won't be heard on my end
cause in your eyes we're a little above friends
yet you beat and wanna beat again
but the reality still stands
that we're just friends
which is not what I long for
but rather what I settle for
until a me and you is what we both want for sure
cause baby I'm feeling you
and I care for you
you mean a lot to me
your words, your sounds, your everything
they're what make you and without you there'd be no me
you reserve the master suite in this hotel,metaphorically speaking of my body and how my heart has your name written on it
in bold print
italicized
and underlined
waiting for you to sign
on the dotted line
stating that I'll be yours and you'll be mine
for which I cant find a name
is about to let you in my world, my heart, my soul, the true me
which most times I dont let you see
but I guess this time I'll let my words be free
free to linger and touch your insides with that warm, tingly, feeling you cast upon me
I come with flaws and imperfections
but between us there's a connection
one that I feel is truly a blessing
and at times teaches me a valuable lesson
love comes knocking
when love's not wanted
but more so needed
and needs to be proceeded with cooperation
and communication
without any hesitation
but most definitely without limitations
yet I choose to run from love cause when love gets too close, it starts to hurt
and strip you of everything so all that you are left with is love itself
which sometimes isn't sufficient
but to ignore all the fussin' and bitchin'
to yourself you continue to mention
that it's what you got and love is what you'll always have but LOVERS dont always stay
...but more about me and you
and how I smile when you call me boo
and how at times I wanna leave with an "I love you"
but too scared that "love you too"
won't be heard on my end
cause in your eyes we're a little above friends
yet you beat and wanna beat again
but the reality still stands
that we're just friends
which is not what I long for
but rather what I settle for
until a me and you is what we both want for sure
cause baby I'm feeling you
and I care for you
you mean a lot to me
your words, your sounds, your everything
they're what make you and without you there'd be no me
you reserve the master suite in this hotel,metaphorically speaking of my body and how my heart has your name written on it
in bold print
italicized
and underlined
waiting for you to sign
on the dotted line
stating that I'll be yours and you'll be mine
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
FACEBOOK DRAMA!!!
I thought I was growing up and leaving the drama aspect behind me. It never fails that it seems to wander around until it finds me. So here is the latest. A girl wrote the following note on facebook and tagged me FIRST...
This Shit IS kinda Sad..but its true!!
Thursday, July 2, 2009 at 1:58pm
FIRST....LET ME START OFF BY SAYIN...this note is not to bash or put anybody down..If you feel you have reached this message in error please hang up and try your call again.ANYWHO...I just wanted to say that WE MEANING BLACKS...xspecially my females need to wake up.AID/HIV IS THE #1KILLER IN THE AFRICAN AMERICAN COMMUNITY!!ppl check da info...Why do we insist on having raw sex and getting prego and shit..i understand mistakes happen,but at a time like this u really have to be more careful,new diseases are being discovered everyday but i swear like 4 a min,everyday out the week i found out sumbdy havin a baby..not even 21yet..its like WTF?..WHY ARENT WE USING THE BRAINS God gave us...just cuz a boy wants to have sex with you raw doesn't mean your his main or tht your anybody special..it actually means he doen't care about you or hisself..and just bcuz u known sumbody for a long period of time doesn't mean they clean..and by clean i mean not infected...a couple of years back we new a nigga tht went to clark tht had aids(and he was fine)and was fukn bitches raw on purpose bcuz he was mad@the world bcuz his ass had AIDS..So its like ppl just think man,thts all i'm sayin..i want us all to live long happy lives..but if we make careless descions like weather or not to use a condom..we will all eventually perish..and i use the term we loosly..cuz i knw all black dnt hve raw sex...and then with the dam baby thing..WHY THE FUCK WUD U *WANT* A BABY@18YRS OLD...sum of these gurls r getting prego on purpose..WHY?so you can struggle all your life and put your dreams on hold to raise another human being?i'm not understanding it.Why not wait til your physically,emotionally and FINANCILLY able..PLEASE DNT BANK ON YO FOOD STAMPS AND WELFARE TO HELP YOU CUZ THTS JUST PATHeTIC...And then just say oh my mama and frends gne help me...vanessa if u get prego gurl u on ya own..u too janice..i ain't helpin wit shit..lol..naw 4real y wud u wana put tht on your mama and others..hell ya mama done raising babies..why wud u wana put your love ones threw tht shit..THAT YOU CAN PREVENT...alli'm sayin is tht its not cute to be on the marta bus wit a baby..its not cute to have yo baby in gucci@2years old but u living with ur mama..CUM ON NOW LADIES..LETS GET OUR SHIT 2GETHER..and then its like when u young and got a baby..DON'T NO NIGGA WANNA FUCK WIT NO BABY MAMA...YOUNG NIGGAS AIN'T TRYNA PLAY DADDY...so dats all i gotta say if u get mad then dat mean its about ya ass so don't hate on the messenger...JUST THINK PEOPLE..DON'T LISTEN TO EVERYTHING A MAN TELLS YOU..AND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE....WRAP IT UP...oh yea another thing all these babies growing up now..are the future..they are the world and if they aren't raised rite..in a good stable enviorment(which means they have a mom fully devoted to there well being...and not tryna hit up figure 8 every weekend,smoking weed and dranking Goose around them..and all tht otha ghetto shit)..they will grow up to be another statistic..So if you want your child to grow up happy..not needing 4 shit..then please wait til your ready..thanks everybody thts my time..its been real...GOD BLESS EVERYONE!
Her message could potentially be a good one but she went about it the wrong way in my opinion. I responded with this status....
Franchesca Fancy Battle is LH{pretty}BO at these incapable minds that speak so much "truth". Stop for a second and think about graduation day>>>dont think I saw you in your cap and gown! Before you try to drop some knowledge on ANYBODY, help yourself to a spoonful! Fancy gon do her and doesnt need your help to do it! *lOvE And pEAcE*
She commented back as well as I....
Tiffanie Latrice Jarrett at 3:16pm July 6
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i see you took the note kinda personaldidn't say u needed my help for anything...didn't men to offend anybody but like i said...if the shoe fits then hey...and yeah u didnt see me @graduation day..but a nigga still got her diploma and i think thts all tht matters..a nigga is strait...worry free...so uuuhhhhhhhhh like monica say...."don't take it personal baby"!!do u...
Franchesca Fancy Battle at 3:37pm July 6
who says the status was about you??? you give yourself way too much credit...looks like you're the one trying the proper shoes on...and if you think you are the first female to attack pregnant girls, then you got another one coming cuz you NOT and you wont be the last. the bottom line is YOU {tiffanie latrice jarrett} are not the one to judge ...all that matters for me is that ima take care of mine and fyi im disease free with college education which isnt stopping b/c of my child! i may not have it all together but all together i have it all! like jeezy say "only God can judge me, who the FUCK is you?!" and trust ima do me cuz only i can!=)
Tiffanie Latrice Jarrett at 2:28pm July 7
And thats all i'm sayin do you gid dam,i specifically said in the first line of the note THIS IS NOT TO JUDGE BASH OR ATTACK anybody.neva said u had a disease..dnt be so sensitive..it is wat it is...sorry if u feel attacked bt u were the only one tht had sumthin to say,so i guess you took it personal,however tht was not my intention,i din bash bt i refuse 2 do this facebook fighting thing so this is it...get mad or wateva bt ppl will always have sumthn to say..thts life..deal with it..i been dealing wit it....do wat u gota do shawty..y u letting another nigga words get u upset...fuck it..it doesn't matta@da end of the day...so dnt write nun else bout me,tell ya lame ass frens to stp the hb shit..so childish..its a wrap..
Franchesca Fancy Battle at 4:55pm July 7
bless yo heart....you HONESTLY think i have to hide behind an honesty box??????? since when were we facebook fighting? you making stuff a lot bigger than what it is. you wrote a note and i wrote a status that you ASSUMED was about you. then you go on to write more statuses and comments and even accused me of stuff....do me and you a favor by just blocking me to eliminate anymore confusion! i got bigger things in my life than you...be blessed!
Tiffanie Latrice Jarrett at 5:03pm July 7
shawty wateva i'm dne have ur baby..have a good life..u got it bra..
She then proceeded to send me a message....
Tiffanie Latrice Jarrett
July 7 at 3:49pm
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ok...i'm not going to keep going back and forth..u can just end it rite here..i have my opinion u have yours..and tht shud be the end of it...tell your frens to stp writing in my honesty box,dnt dedicate your status to me or nun of tht dumb ass computer shi..cuz at the end of the day i'ma still say wat i gota say and i'm not gne stp..long ass i'm not disrespecting anybody i'm cool,hell I WASN'T EVEN REFERING to your ass but you took it personal anyway as if i hit home for you so hey..i'm done with you..kill it..let it die for it go sumwhere u dnt want it to go..like i said..sorry if i offended u,tht wasn't my intention,the shit about me graduatin was funny..uncalled for bt funny...u thought u had sumthn but a nigga got hers..tht shit u talkin dnt even matter..so i wish u the best with ur baby and hope u dnt make the same mistake agin....*smooches*
so yeah, i replied....
Franchesca Fancy Battle
July 7 at 5:06pm
get a life tiffanie...i never said i took it personal...and for the last time, i never said the status was about you...hit dog will holla...you da only one taking shit personal, but you fail to realize that....i didnt take da shit personal...it was ya opinion so go you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please stop accusing me of writing in ya hb and idk what friends you talking bout but im pretty sure they have better things to do than toy with your hb....you telling me to let it die, but notice that you continue to contact me. you all on MY page, you making statuses and comments.....im so over it....grow up and you definitely tried me and my child by calling her a mistake. i wish ya mother would've aborted you. you are obviously the mistake. life is a gift from God, so thats on you for making it seem like he doesnt know what he's doing. i wish you the best with your pointless life.goodbye ms opinonated, dont give a fuck what ppl think about it, yet im all on franchesca's page salty about some petty shit, tiffanie. be blessed
even after i kindly dismissed her, she STILL replied...
Tiffanie Latrice Jarrett
Today at 12:20pm
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First off,let me address where your wrong.FRANCHESA I WROTE A NOTE,u got mad.changed ur stat...therefore YOU TOOK IT PERSONAL...WTF DNT U UNDERSTAND...U WERE ThE ONLY ONE WHO HAD SUMTHN TO SAY BOUT IT.da only one..even tho it wasn't directed towards you..I never said YOUR CHILD was a mistake...SEE YOUR STILL TAKING MY WORDs PERSONAL...bt you knw wat rite about now i dnt gve a fuck if u take them personal,stp being fake,the staus was about my note so i'm not buying your bullshit....and how did i try you when i never directed anything towards you..ONCE AGAIN THE DOg WILL HOLLA!!!u playin ya self rite now,u look real stupid..u called ya self out by getting mad lol...and as for me getting a life..in a couple of months ur going to wish u had one..lol..and for your knowledge i sent the message bcuz i thought the drama was childish.I dnt have to have ppl all oin my shit.oh andplease dnt try to call me out bout shit,cuz me my ppl know bout u.trust..and if u wana go there we can,see that was da problem in da first place u dnt knw wat ppl knw bout ya ass so dnt go there u or ya frend dnt wana go there...so uhh please end it rite here for your own sake baby mama...dnt contyact me...dnt dedicate your personal status to me..i feel special tht u did tht but enuf already...this is pointless ok..i'm sure you have PLENTY other MORE IMPORTANT things to WORRY and STRESS over..so live your life and keep me out of it..i'm not coming to no fukin baby shower so dnt foward me da message...thanks......peace and love!!!..............and who said anything about GOD not knowing wat he's doin..man shut da hell up..u obviously have isssues with your pregnacy..dnt take them out on me..u had unprotected sex..not i..u have to live with tht shit..not i...i'm good...good job...good schooling..good relationship...good place..i'm good baby..wish u cud say the same....maby u shuda gt da abortion cuz i see now ur misreable..mad@da world...honestly why are you mad at me?What did i physically do to you?I musta hit home for you in the note huh?sorry babe life is real...
needless to say, i finally blocked her and let her live in that screwed up brain of hers. she then went on to instant message my friend about ME accusing us both of writing in her honesty box and other mess. she also dedicated two statuses to ME! oh and dont let me forget her comment on her own note that was also about ME. yet she is the one continuously saying I dont need to take things personal. You be the judge and tell me who took anything personal....{lmao}
Indeed I gave her way to much of my time and should not have entertained her to begin with but it was just so tempting. For her, it's really a big deal and she probably has been living for this drama but it's old now and I'm so over her! I left Westlake drama at Westlake over two years ago! It's time to grow up! Me included!
This Shit IS kinda Sad..but its true!!
Thursday, July 2, 2009 at 1:58pm
FIRST....LET ME START OFF BY SAYIN...this note is not to bash or put anybody down..If you feel you have reached this message in error please hang up and try your call again.ANYWHO...I just wanted to say that WE MEANING BLACKS...xspecially my females need to wake up.AID/HIV IS THE #1KILLER IN THE AFRICAN AMERICAN COMMUNITY!!ppl check da info...Why do we insist on having raw sex and getting prego and shit..i understand mistakes happen,but at a time like this u really have to be more careful,new diseases are being discovered everyday but i swear like 4 a min,everyday out the week i found out sumbdy havin a baby..not even 21yet..its like WTF?..WHY ARENT WE USING THE BRAINS God gave us...just cuz a boy wants to have sex with you raw doesn't mean your his main or tht your anybody special..it actually means he doen't care about you or hisself..and just bcuz u known sumbody for a long period of time doesn't mean they clean..and by clean i mean not infected...a couple of years back we new a nigga tht went to clark tht had aids(and he was fine)and was fukn bitches raw on purpose bcuz he was mad@the world bcuz his ass had AIDS..So its like ppl just think man,thts all i'm sayin..i want us all to live long happy lives..but if we make careless descions like weather or not to use a condom..we will all eventually perish..and i use the term we loosly..cuz i knw all black dnt hve raw sex...and then with the dam baby thing..WHY THE FUCK WUD U *WANT* A BABY@18YRS OLD...sum of these gurls r getting prego on purpose..WHY?so you can struggle all your life and put your dreams on hold to raise another human being?i'm not understanding it.Why not wait til your physically,emotionally and FINANCILLY able..PLEASE DNT BANK ON YO FOOD STAMPS AND WELFARE TO HELP YOU CUZ THTS JUST PATHeTIC...And then just say oh my mama and frends gne help me...vanessa if u get prego gurl u on ya own..u too janice..i ain't helpin wit shit..lol..naw 4real y wud u wana put tht on your mama and others..hell ya mama done raising babies..why wud u wana put your love ones threw tht shit..THAT YOU CAN PREVENT...alli'm sayin is tht its not cute to be on the marta bus wit a baby..its not cute to have yo baby in gucci@2years old but u living with ur mama..CUM ON NOW LADIES..LETS GET OUR SHIT 2GETHER..and then its like when u young and got a baby..DON'T NO NIGGA WANNA FUCK WIT NO BABY MAMA...YOUNG NIGGAS AIN'T TRYNA PLAY DADDY...so dats all i gotta say if u get mad then dat mean its about ya ass so don't hate on the messenger...JUST THINK PEOPLE..DON'T LISTEN TO EVERYTHING A MAN TELLS YOU..AND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE....WRAP IT UP...oh yea another thing all these babies growing up now..are the future..they are the world and if they aren't raised rite..in a good stable enviorment(which means they have a mom fully devoted to there well being...and not tryna hit up figure 8 every weekend,smoking weed and dranking Goose around them..and all tht otha ghetto shit)..they will grow up to be another statistic..So if you want your child to grow up happy..not needing 4 shit..then please wait til your ready..thanks everybody thts my time..its been real...GOD BLESS EVERYONE!
Her message could potentially be a good one but she went about it the wrong way in my opinion. I responded with this status....
Franchesca Fancy Battle is LH{pretty}BO at these incapable minds that speak so much "truth". Stop for a second and think about graduation day>>>dont think I saw you in your cap and gown! Before you try to drop some knowledge on ANYBODY, help yourself to a spoonful! Fancy gon do her and doesnt need your help to do it! *lOvE And pEAcE*
She commented back as well as I....
Tiffanie Latrice Jarrett at 3:16pm July 6
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i see you took the note kinda personaldidn't say u needed my help for anything...didn't men to offend anybody but like i said...if the shoe fits then hey...and yeah u didnt see me @graduation day..but a nigga still got her diploma and i think thts all tht matters..a nigga is strait...worry free...so uuuhhhhhhhhh like monica say...."don't take it personal baby"!!do u...
Franchesca Fancy Battle at 3:37pm July 6
who says the status was about you??? you give yourself way too much credit...looks like you're the one trying the proper shoes on...and if you think you are the first female to attack pregnant girls, then you got another one coming cuz you NOT and you wont be the last. the bottom line is YOU {tiffanie latrice jarrett} are not the one to judge ...all that matters for me is that ima take care of mine and fyi im disease free with college education which isnt stopping b/c of my child! i may not have it all together but all together i have it all! like jeezy say "only God can judge me, who the FUCK is you?!" and trust ima do me cuz only i can!=)
Tiffanie Latrice Jarrett at 2:28pm July 7
And thats all i'm sayin do you gid dam,i specifically said in the first line of the note THIS IS NOT TO JUDGE BASH OR ATTACK anybody.neva said u had a disease..dnt be so sensitive..it is wat it is...sorry if u feel attacked bt u were the only one tht had sumthin to say,so i guess you took it personal,however tht was not my intention,i din bash bt i refuse 2 do this facebook fighting thing so this is it...get mad or wateva bt ppl will always have sumthn to say..thts life..deal with it..i been dealing wit it....do wat u gota do shawty..y u letting another nigga words get u upset...fuck it..it doesn't matta@da end of the day...so dnt write nun else bout me,tell ya lame ass frens to stp the hb shit..so childish..its a wrap..
Franchesca Fancy Battle at 4:55pm July 7
bless yo heart....you HONESTLY think i have to hide behind an honesty box??????? since when were we facebook fighting? you making stuff a lot bigger than what it is. you wrote a note and i wrote a status that you ASSUMED was about you. then you go on to write more statuses and comments and even accused me of stuff....do me and you a favor by just blocking me to eliminate anymore confusion! i got bigger things in my life than you...be blessed!
Tiffanie Latrice Jarrett at 5:03pm July 7
shawty wateva i'm dne have ur baby..have a good life..u got it bra..
She then proceeded to send me a message....
Tiffanie Latrice Jarrett
July 7 at 3:49pm
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ok...i'm not going to keep going back and forth..u can just end it rite here..i have my opinion u have yours..and tht shud be the end of it...tell your frens to stp writing in my honesty box,dnt dedicate your status to me or nun of tht dumb ass computer shi..cuz at the end of the day i'ma still say wat i gota say and i'm not gne stp..long ass i'm not disrespecting anybody i'm cool,hell I WASN'T EVEN REFERING to your ass but you took it personal anyway as if i hit home for you so hey..i'm done with you..kill it..let it die for it go sumwhere u dnt want it to go..like i said..sorry if i offended u,tht wasn't my intention,the shit about me graduatin was funny..uncalled for bt funny...u thought u had sumthn but a nigga got hers..tht shit u talkin dnt even matter..so i wish u the best with ur baby and hope u dnt make the same mistake agin....*smooches*
so yeah, i replied....
Franchesca Fancy Battle
July 7 at 5:06pm
get a life tiffanie...i never said i took it personal...and for the last time, i never said the status was about you...hit dog will holla...you da only one taking shit personal, but you fail to realize that....i didnt take da shit personal...it was ya opinion so go you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please stop accusing me of writing in ya hb and idk what friends you talking bout but im pretty sure they have better things to do than toy with your hb....you telling me to let it die, but notice that you continue to contact me. you all on MY page, you making statuses and comments.....im so over it....grow up and you definitely tried me and my child by calling her a mistake. i wish ya mother would've aborted you. you are obviously the mistake. life is a gift from God, so thats on you for making it seem like he doesnt know what he's doing. i wish you the best with your pointless life.goodbye ms opinonated, dont give a fuck what ppl think about it, yet im all on franchesca's page salty about some petty shit, tiffanie. be blessed
even after i kindly dismissed her, she STILL replied...
Tiffanie Latrice Jarrett
Today at 12:20pm
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First off,let me address where your wrong.FRANCHESA I WROTE A NOTE,u got mad.changed ur stat...therefore YOU TOOK IT PERSONAL...WTF DNT U UNDERSTAND...U WERE ThE ONLY ONE WHO HAD SUMTHN TO SAY BOUT IT.da only one..even tho it wasn't directed towards you..I never said YOUR CHILD was a mistake...SEE YOUR STILL TAKING MY WORDs PERSONAL...bt you knw wat rite about now i dnt gve a fuck if u take them personal,stp being fake,the staus was about my note so i'm not buying your bullshit....and how did i try you when i never directed anything towards you..ONCE AGAIN THE DOg WILL HOLLA!!!u playin ya self rite now,u look real stupid..u called ya self out by getting mad lol...and as for me getting a life..in a couple of months ur going to wish u had one..lol..and for your knowledge i sent the message bcuz i thought the drama was childish.I dnt have to have ppl all oin my shit.oh andplease dnt try to call me out bout shit,cuz me my ppl know bout u.trust..and if u wana go there we can,see that was da problem in da first place u dnt knw wat ppl knw bout ya ass so dnt go there u or ya frend dnt wana go there...so uhh please end it rite here for your own sake baby mama...dnt contyact me...dnt dedicate your personal status to me..i feel special tht u did tht but enuf already...this is pointless ok..i'm sure you have PLENTY other MORE IMPORTANT things to WORRY and STRESS over..so live your life and keep me out of it..i'm not coming to no fukin baby shower so dnt foward me da message...thanks......peace and love!!!..............and who said anything about GOD not knowing wat he's doin..man shut da hell up..u obviously have isssues with your pregnacy..dnt take them out on me..u had unprotected sex..not i..u have to live with tht shit..not i...i'm good...good job...good schooling..good relationship...good place..i'm good baby..wish u cud say the same....maby u shuda gt da abortion cuz i see now ur misreable..mad@da world...honestly why are you mad at me?What did i physically do to you?I musta hit home for you in the note huh?sorry babe life is real...
needless to say, i finally blocked her and let her live in that screwed up brain of hers. she then went on to instant message my friend about ME accusing us both of writing in her honesty box and other mess. she also dedicated two statuses to ME! oh and dont let me forget her comment on her own note that was also about ME. yet she is the one continuously saying I dont need to take things personal. You be the judge and tell me who took anything personal....{lmao}
Indeed I gave her way to much of my time and should not have entertained her to begin with but it was just so tempting. For her, it's really a big deal and she probably has been living for this drama but it's old now and I'm so over her! I left Westlake drama at Westlake over two years ago! It's time to grow up! Me included!
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Sleep Deprivation
Why is it that your body will do the opposite of what you mentally desire? I get up early all week for work and just this one time, i want to sleep late. I need the rest cuz i'm physically drained! Yet i'm lying here in bed jealous of my boyfriend cuz He's out! He's snoring and sleep talking as well! I just wanna close my eyes and dream about foolishness. Instead i'm up thinking bout what I can be doin and my goals for today. This absolutely sucks!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Maybe I'm Heartless
Indeed it's a shock that Michael Jackson has died, but seriously why are people acting like Mike was their closest uncle or somebody. I mean he is definitely legend but watching 20 year olds crying on 106 and park strikes me as p i t i f u l. The bottom line is that you didn't know him personally and your tears and sad ways are not doing him any good. Ask yourself, would Michael cry if he heard you had died. Would he care one way or the other??? Pray for his family but let that sad ish go. It's stupid. ::personal opinion::
It doesn't make you a fan if you only know his 3 or 4 most popular songs. Get a grip! I didn't cry for Left Eye, Aaliyah, Biggie, Pac, Rick James, Bernie Mac, not even Luther....Mike will NOT get my tears! So maybe I'm heartless...I think I'm a realest and its time you get a taste of the juice I'm on!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Let It Go!
I have so much to say but at times like this my words can never really be expressed. I guess the bottom line is I am unsure of my feelings and my take on certain situations cause I could potentially have a biased view. But here goes!
People go through life not really getting the treatment they deserve because of their passive and kind ways. But how do you know when too far is just that? Too far! Don’t get me wrong because I believe in forgiving people but when it seems as if the intentions of the person is to honestly hurt you, that’s when you have to get the balls to continue on without that person. No one who truly loves you will continuously do things that cause you ill feelings. Obviously that person is trying to send you a sign or give u the notion that he/she wants a change in life and you are not necessarily apart of that change. People can only do what you allow them to do and if you allow them to run over you or make a fool of you or even present a picture of them having you wrapped around their pinky finger, then guess what….THEY WILL CONTINUE TO DO THESE THINGS WITHOUT ANY TYPE OF REMORSE!!!
Girls indeed play games in relationships no matter how much they love and care for you. But some games chicks play go beyond the limitation of a TRUE loving relationship. If someone so called really care about you then they want the best for you. Love is KIND! I know that things are not supposed to be all peachy clean but things do get to that breaking point and when it gets there it has to be a 50/50 effort to get past it. When new situations began to arise and you are the victim not the criminal, it is time to LET GO! There is no justification or excuse to be mistreated! If the person you have professed your love to publically and privately begins to do things out of the norm such as numerable cheatings acts or anything that is shameful to tell a third party, then maybe that person has already began a new life and is just giving you reasons to call it quits….(games) the best game a chick or guy can put on is the upfront game cause he or she is letting you know everything that is going on but at the same time not stopping the side piece action! So for that person, everything is cool because they “did the right thing” by making you aware of the wrong actions but who is to say that the wrong actions are going to stop as a result of you knowing?!?! Them not having anything to hide only allows them to sleep better but oh well for your sleep cause that person still doing their own thing without any regard to your feelings!
Then that person hits you with the “but YOU did this” or “what about that time YOU” type of stuff. This in turn makes you feel bad and that is when you excuse such behavior from him or her because the wrong you did surfaces once again! But my main thing is this {{{love is not sufficient if BOTH parties are doing things that can most definitely be under the title of cheating}}} obviously the happiness that was once there is only sparked at certain times and remnants of the past can produce that smile that you once couldn’t get OFF your face. Rather you decide to face reality or not, you both have found happiness elsewhere. The time needed to mend and rebuild what WAS, is too extensive due to the fact that in the time used to repair; feelings for whomever else have already grown! The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result. Clearly you must be insane to keep trying to put the pieces to the puzzle back together knowing it’s a 100 count and you only have 78 pieces to work with!! Maybe you are better off without each other than being together under conditions that include arguing constantly, attitude changes when the person comes around, lying when the truth is too much to handle, and going to sleep thinking about someone else >lol…killer<> Basically you both are looking for an outlet to escape the sad reality of what once was but when the outlet becomes available it becomes easier to blame each other than to accept things as they are clearly given to you! You can love someone and be apart from them. Just because you love someone doesn’t mean that you have to be with each other. Love is definitely not the super glue to relationships. It has to be more!
Moral of the blog>>>>LET IT GO!
People go through life not really getting the treatment they deserve because of their passive and kind ways. But how do you know when too far is just that? Too far! Don’t get me wrong because I believe in forgiving people but when it seems as if the intentions of the person is to honestly hurt you, that’s when you have to get the balls to continue on without that person. No one who truly loves you will continuously do things that cause you ill feelings. Obviously that person is trying to send you a sign or give u the notion that he/she wants a change in life and you are not necessarily apart of that change. People can only do what you allow them to do and if you allow them to run over you or make a fool of you or even present a picture of them having you wrapped around their pinky finger, then guess what….THEY WILL CONTINUE TO DO THESE THINGS WITHOUT ANY TYPE OF REMORSE!!!
Girls indeed play games in relationships no matter how much they love and care for you. But some games chicks play go beyond the limitation of a TRUE loving relationship. If someone so called really care about you then they want the best for you. Love is KIND! I know that things are not supposed to be all peachy clean but things do get to that breaking point and when it gets there it has to be a 50/50 effort to get past it. When new situations began to arise and you are the victim not the criminal, it is time to LET GO! There is no justification or excuse to be mistreated! If the person you have professed your love to publically and privately begins to do things out of the norm such as numerable cheatings acts or anything that is shameful to tell a third party, then maybe that person has already began a new life and is just giving you reasons to call it quits….(games) the best game a chick or guy can put on is the upfront game cause he or she is letting you know everything that is going on but at the same time not stopping the side piece action! So for that person, everything is cool because they “did the right thing” by making you aware of the wrong actions but who is to say that the wrong actions are going to stop as a result of you knowing?!?! Them not having anything to hide only allows them to sleep better but oh well for your sleep cause that person still doing their own thing without any regard to your feelings!
Then that person hits you with the “but YOU did this” or “what about that time YOU” type of stuff. This in turn makes you feel bad and that is when you excuse such behavior from him or her because the wrong you did surfaces once again! But my main thing is this {{{love is not sufficient if BOTH parties are doing things that can most definitely be under the title of cheating}}} obviously the happiness that was once there is only sparked at certain times and remnants of the past can produce that smile that you once couldn’t get OFF your face. Rather you decide to face reality or not, you both have found happiness elsewhere. The time needed to mend and rebuild what WAS, is too extensive due to the fact that in the time used to repair; feelings for whomever else have already grown! The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result. Clearly you must be insane to keep trying to put the pieces to the puzzle back together knowing it’s a 100 count and you only have 78 pieces to work with!! Maybe you are better off without each other than being together under conditions that include arguing constantly, attitude changes when the person comes around, lying when the truth is too much to handle, and going to sleep thinking about someone else >lol…killer<> Basically you both are looking for an outlet to escape the sad reality of what once was but when the outlet becomes available it becomes easier to blame each other than to accept things as they are clearly given to you! You can love someone and be apart from them. Just because you love someone doesn’t mean that you have to be with each other. Love is definitely not the super glue to relationships. It has to be more!
Moral of the blog>>>>LET IT GO!
Friday, June 19, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
First Ultrasound
So I've been doing window shopping just to see what the stores have to offer for my little one, not knowing what I'm actually having yet. Girls have a huge selection in all colors and their section is so adorable. Boys on the other hand have a small selection and everything has animals on it....{boring} I want to have a girl so I can play house, dress up, have tea parties, and be at her dance recitals....oh and I want to adorn her in princess attire and accessories....the cutest stuff ever. Well God heard my prayers cause after having my first ultrasound yesterday, IT'S A GIRL!!!!!!! yay!!! She is going to be mommy's and daddy's little princess! =) Christianah Sincere Jonas
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